Leveling up to NL5
After 15 days 45 hours 14,663 hands we made a whopping 48$
And every time I do a NL2 challenge I always say I'm never going back to NL2
But I fear this is the last time I will play NL2
Basically the training ground for my whole poker career up until 3 years ago when we started playing NL10 on PokerstarsUS
I've learned so much playing at this entry level stake, and I'm so happy to say goodbye to it
I'm not a "losing" player per say, but in my mind I'm definitely underachieving, but its all mental that's the good thing. I say its good because I can fix it, I'm tired of being where I'm at. I have what it takes to be a good player, its just some weird mental hang up, either a mix of imposter syndrome, fear of success, fear of failure and just plain undiagnosed adhd/tism
I say all that to say, we are grinding NL5 day in day out like we did with NL2, same thing. Todays session was jarring in the retrospective of 3rd person seeing ourselves making a mistake knowingly but still doing it to a. show we need to stick to the script/strategy no matter what b. some weird confirmation bias that we need to know if we are right or wrong. But the thing is, it doesn't matter. data shows that, just follow it, honestly have faith in that. If you don't have faith in anything ( because lets be honest even faith in yourself waivers from time to time ) have faith in the fucking data, because its smarter than you and that's okay
I LOVED todays session, first one we played we crushed until the like 10 hands where we gave half a buy-in back, then we tried to stream and it was just not working, tilted lost 2 buy-ins, played maybe ~1k hands, and we messed up hands! we have hands where we must review and look at and attack the mistakes with intensity where we wont commit them anymore.
I don't care about NL200, I think we have fallen in love with the process of reviewing hands, uploading sessions, and YouTube shorts highlights, and streaming almost everyday. YouTube is gaining traction I'm getting more views than we ever hand while doing content. and to be honest we don't feel drained, its almost a sense of wanting to prove the system right by playing the strategy right and not deviating because of some weird assumption. Honestly I could put in more hands I'm at 14k for this month would like to hit 25k without feeling like it was "hard" but now that I just typed that out it sounds weak, but at the same time what's the point of all this if we flame out? as I type this at 5:44am and we've yet to sleep yet with a half smoked joint in the ashtray.
I don't know about the loan, maybe we just grind like mad at NL5 hit 25k hands with a 16bb/100 winrate and then another 16bb/100 at NL10 lol
idk need to finish up this month strong we bounce back from a -10.93$ session where perhaps either it was card distribution problems/ variance, i mean the amount of times we just were met at top of range, but guess what?! in what spots?! CHECK RAISE RIVER FOR LARGE BET SIZING so if we just fold those spots we would of printed today!
But universe willing we have a chance at a reprieve by playing tomorrow and playing well!
Hey if we lose 38$ at NL5 we are still playing NL5 with a 20 buy-in bankroll, I'm just not going back to NL2 lol I'm just NOT!
anyways here's a graph and stats of NL2
