The Poker Grind So Far

well, when we first started this journey we knew this we test us and we haven't even gotten to the tougher levels yet.

the feelings of spinning my wheels wasting time, frustration that I failed with the backing/loan experiment not because of play but because of "what ifs"

so now here we are playing NL2 until our bankroll reaches ~150$ to have enough buyins to play NL5

what other choice do I have? try and find a job doing bullshit or just fucking lock in play 6hrs a day hit 25k hands with a 20bb win rate at NL2, have more than enough to start playing NL5 and do the same thing at that level, next thing you know we are at NL50 actually making some money even if our winrate is 9bb/100 

not even speaking about the the content side of it

constant YouTube shorts, and long form uploads daily of the grind

we'll bring back the mic and cam once NL25 because I feel its a stake where we actually have something to say? 

 BUT IT ALL STARTS AT NL2...so all the thoughts of this is dumb spinning wheels thoughts of embarrassment that we have to play this to move up is just the doubt speaking.

We put in the volume that is the only thing that matters the numbers will number, but if we put in 25k hands playing the way we play we will get to the next stake, and then the next. its about not burning out listening to your body, but we still have to push through. 

a lot is riding on this. i dont want to do anything else. i cant do anything else im in too deep. not debt wise but life wise, i owe it to my life to become a pro in something idk why 

so we'll check in again around tuesday and lets see where we stand the bankroll is at 93.99$ so we'll just keep pumping in the volume 

down below is our graph so far and our bankroll challenge playlist